April 2011
1 post
“I’m writing again, these letters to you.”
February 2011
1 post
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Flying back to CA for the last time in a few hours.
I’ll update then. Mind is still not in one piece.
I don’t know why the only entity I can talk to is a computer.
Keys are more silent than eyes.
I miss emotion.
January 2011
5 posts
He's Dead.
He’s dead. My father is dead.
I have no one to tell but a computer screen.
This does not feel like real life.
What do I do now?
Who do I hate?
Can I go back home?
What do I do?
What am I doing?
He is dead.
Do you remember? This was my first influence. This...
1 tag
formspring.me
I’ll answer anything, just ask. http://formspring.me/SpotLightCity
“God. Damn it.”
December 2010
3 posts
lokiroulocte:
Your love is like, a rollercoaster...
RokiLoulocte. →
I have no idea who this girl is, but she’s basically me in female form. She posts the coolest shit. If you appreciate anything that has to do with art, follow her.
I Finally Went Back
And read over the past few hundred (or not even nearly close to that many) posts concerning Alaska, and it’s incredibly confusing. Here’s her story and how it started to associate with me. I’d just started my apprenticeship at the parlor and this girl came wandering into the shop, wanting to get a tattoo done. Now I’m working on the light table on a fox sketch, and she sees...
November 2010
6 posts
Checked Tumblr.
Had x amount of followers. Clicked around. Posted a weird photo of myself. Lost a follower. Down to x-1 amount of followers. Felt dejected. Proceeded to ruminate on the mystics of Tumblr’s insanity and deface said photo. Felt slightly better. Moved on with my life.
Damien Albarn, I would love to have a great...
Does Not Compute.
I am not on Tumblr for a solid three weeks because of my insane social/work life, which seems preposterous looking back on it as an excuse, but anyway, I haven’t been on Tumblr, and I gain two followers for the first time in months.
What the hell gives?
This is exactly why I’ve given up on trying to understand the laws of the universe. Or, at least the laws of the internet. I guess...
“ITS BEEN TOO LONG, FOR FUCK’S SAKE”
October 2010
6 posts
“YES. I ADMIT THAT I HAVE A PROBLEM. I AM ADDICTED TO RATATAT.”
The best song I have heard in a LONG time.
Bob...
Bullshit. [Bullshit, bullshit. Oh no drinks for...
One day, I’m just going to completely lose my mind. I mean, people just don’t believe all the crazy shit I’ve lived through and, to be honest, it feels like a god damn movie. It seriously can’t be real. Like where is the camera crew feeding me lines and telling me to reshoot that scene because the lighting was off?
It’s just drama drama drama comedy romantic drama...
“Sometimes I really want to kill you.”
A great track from three guys, one of...
Curious.
I just want to know you!
It’s peculiar being on the other end of the spectrum. Being the one so confused and shrouded by someone else’s mystery that you don’t know which way is up and what’s going on but all you know is that you want them. I’m usually the one hiding behind masks and smiling my way out of conversations. But I am pouring my soul out to this girl and...
September 2010
10 posts
“If girls were money,”
– I’d still be poor as fuck.
It is this kind of morning.
Float On - Ben Lee
I Hate Absolutely Everything.
About her. I hate her stupid uneven front teeth, the ugly pair of freckles on her left shoulder. I hate how she never cuts her hair and the boring color of it. I hate how she always does the same make up, I hate how she laughs. I hate how she always is drinking coffee and puts too much sugar in. I hate her curly toes. I hate how her handwriting looks. I hate her.
But I am in love with this girl.
1 tag
I want you to know that I will never stop loving...
Thank you, I think.
I’ll answer anything, just ask.
Dear Alaska.
You are my favorite. I cannot believe that someone named after such an odd state would be so incredible, but then again, I should have seen it coming. As usual, I’m thinking way too much, taking too many meds to properly function as your average human being. We are so far from average. It’s like the filter in my brain has finally expired and left me only with a flood of useless...
“Does it matter to anyone but me that I have been sober for seventy-seven days?...”
Foxes Mate For Life.
And I’m doing my first self-serve tattoo probably tomorrow, maybe Friday. Point is, it’ll be a fox on the outside of my right foot. I’ve always been a little curious and intrigued by those animals, and recently someone told me that they’re one of the few species of animal that, like humans, mate for life. They have only each other, and maybe two cubs. If one dies, they stay...
“I want to be your friend.”
Read this Now. →
August 2010
5 posts
In The Middle With Pressure.
I would read to you and play guitar, give you everything you ever needed. I’d stay off drugs and hold you close, whenever you needed comforting. I’d make you breakfast and drive you to work, make you laugh with a stupid joke at least once a day. I’d fall asleep quietly with you and with a smile on my face, matching the smile I’d left on yours. I’d be able to kill my...
“Coffee.”
Dean's Law:
Get a new girl, the one that you never really got over comes back.
Heartbeats.
I felt them again for the first time in weeks. I had to remember to breath and to laugh when I couldn’t think of something to say, which happened a lot. It felt like December had rolled around and woke me up with a cold snap.
Everything’s quiet right now, like it has been for so long. For the first time in months I’m genuinely mad because I cannot use my phone when I really need...
July 2010
16 posts
“I’m still a charmer to my advantage. Still got it.”
“God, I’m useless. Some other time, Killroy.”
Conclusion.
I actually have none to speak of. I had some sort of idea I wanted to write about but was totally derailed when I stumbled (lol) across this weird picture of Lady Gaga.
It’s awkward to say this but this is what I wear on a daily basis, minus the heels and add some sleeves to the jacket. I know. It wasn’t very conclusive.
This is Important.
I decided to follow loldemort.tumblr.com merely based on the fact that their user name is FUCKING AWESOME. After scrolling through their recent posts, the blog then led me to It’sKingsleyBitch’s youtube channel, which is basically a gay black teenager ranting about overplayed song.
I AM LOVING LIFE.
“Getting Starbucks, I need my Skinny Grande Cinnamon Dolce Frappacinno STAT. No,...”
How well do you see color? →
Hahaha I got a 69.
NO.
Envy On The Coast! Come back!!! NOOOOOOO!
My Hero. →
This is so awesome. I never like pop, but this is...
This Is Semi-Important.
Has anybody made a huge mistake, and then realized that you were fucking up, and then fixed yourself? And then nobody believed you and everybody disappeared from your life without a look back? I think that just happened.
I guess what they say is true, once a heroin addict, always a heroin addict. I relapsed for a 48 hour binge. I don’t know what I was thinking - I just needed an excuse....